21 August (Tydens die 23 uur wat Dina sonder mediese hulp op grasperk gelê het. Woorde wat 'n vriend in Whk ervaar het. Jy kan dit lees as jy rustig is.))
Ayana: Since yesterday there has been the awareness that it is Love that moves and emanates from Core. Love is the intention (that which moves) and substance/content (that which is expressed). Its target is everything and yet not necessarily anyone in particular.
Life is moving Love (and where does Love not move?).
The physical universe is an elaborate design of moving Love, of Life, expressed in form, yet inhabited and held by the formless.
"Dina's path has altered course as well."
22 August
"Nothing will be the same for her. See her glory and extend this gift of sight to everyone."
Ayana: But I see not as I did yesterday. The glory was a strong impression, so full of vibrancy, perfection and purity. Today, this is a mere knowing, a memory perhaps, because the impression yesterday was so strong. Perhaps...
"Then choose, slow down, become still and look again."
Ayana: Okay, Jesus grant me your vision which is your gift to me from God.
A world arises slowly as if from within me. The impression is more one of a hard casing or shell crumbling and giving way .
It is my eyes doing this. I can feel that my gaze is becoming softer, gentler and more substance-directed than form occupied.
To view with love is to grant yourself the gift of true sight.
I let the unceasing flow of Love from within extend to Dina as I turn my gaze towards her…
To ensure that there is no agenda, I first look at Gawi and wonder what it is that I saw in him yesterday and slowly, ever so gently, the words take form in me: I saw his magnitude, his capacity to absorb, to take in, to truly receive the gift unspeakable of realising that he is be-ing, the will of the Father.
He experienced the gift of presence, the awareness that he himself is be-ing The Presence, not just enjoying The Presence.
"Now hold this gently and observe."
Ayana: I do. Presence is spaciousness, not a point. It is not condensed or contracted into a specific place in space. It is a quality of mind, open-mindedness, extending like diffuse tentacles of an octopus probing the vastness of mind and taking in everything as it extends deeper into reality.
"This is only your experience for now. It is a passing phase. Return to Gawi being the gift of Presence, his sanity, his Wholeness."
Ayana: The words, "his wholeness," rings in me. Presence is wholeness. It is perfect health because in presence there are no parts. Nothing is part of me. Presence is all.
"Gawi had to come to see you (op pad Whk toe het ek by hom gestop) and you him for the gift of Presence to be made real to you both and hence, to all.
"You now feel how that that presence, awareness of be-ing presence, is soaking into the fibre of your being. It registers on a cellular level, thereby gifting this contracted and dense body with the wholeness of spaciousness, with well-be-ing."
"And so, without having realised the import of the experience, Gawi has been gifted with Homecoming. When his "abilities" and attempts were exhausted - reached the end of the line (tydens die 23 uur van naakte pyn en niks wat ek kon doen - behalwe om te WEET -God is hier) - all that remained for him was to experience the truth of be-ing Presence. There was quite literally nothing else for him, see?"
"There never was anything else but Presence, but now Gawi knows this. He has experienced the truth of who he is as the Presence of the Father. How can this be construed in any other way than being the coming home to one's self, to one's birthright, to one's inheritance, or rather, one's created authority, the authority of be-ing I Am."
"You have typed many words and done so in a way as haphazard as your thoughts have been. Correct this not so that you lose not the thread contained in the words, the thread your mind has followed as awakening dawned upon it".
"Now we return to Dina, with the understanding that it was Gawi's Presence that was required and no-one else's. He has been her sanity and will continue to anchor her in the reality of be-ing, in the truth of being fully human while being altogether divine."
"Allow the gift of Gawi's presence to be your guide as you look upon your sister."
Ayana: Okay, I'm aware of a soft and all-pervading clarity. Definition, which I used to like so much, is gone. It has given way to … what?
Well, I am aware of respectfulness of the way things are. A cold, grasping, calculatedness is no more. I don't know why I express it as such, but I do know that the words I use here seem to be the most appropriate. The will to define and describe seem to have fallen away or given way to calm observance absent of any agenda other than to see what is for no other reason than just seeing. Specifics matter not, well not here anyway.
Dina sleeps in a state of eternal youthfulness, exquisitely preserved and beautifully arrayed. The story of Goldilocks befits her to a tee. Her prince, in having rushed to her side, has found himself, through the very act of having reached out to her in her distress and just being with her in that place of not knowing, that dark night of a soul at the end of striving, as himself being ready to relinquish all effort, but not desire…
Prince Gawi had to first find himself, his calling and function, for the kiss of true love to abolish sleep, to awaken the gift Dina has been and has held out to Gawi. The words "held out" don't feel right so I'll try again. It is a gift she has preserved, or rather held in trust, for him. It is the gift of right-mindedness.
Dina has actually been the personification of the Holy Spirit?
"Dina's function has been that, yes. And she, very much like the Holy Spirit, has simply been waiting for the searching, grasping, mind to become still enough to be able to be returned to sanity, home, to its own calm sanity that has never departed despite its preoccupation with frantic noisiness generated by a fearful self.
Presence is Gawi's home and Presence is the gift you have now received from him and have extended to all. Now let Presence be felt by you." Jy wat hier lees sal Hom ook ervaar. Be blessed.Gawi.)
Ayana: I slowly allow it to be, to permeate my being. Allowing the awesome power and authority is a litle daunting, but by simply continuing to allow, to let be, to receive, causes bonds to snap open, as if these bonds have been under tension. The peacefulness that sets in has a quality of soft receptiveness to it. It feels as if I am more open and receptive than ever before while being more attentive to letting pass-through be complete. Nothing is retained. Everything is given, shared, passed on…...
The stream of life that perpetually flows from within, is now joined by awareness, the awe-inspiring awareness that it is God Who is among us, AS us.
